Weight - what?

You know how I was all crazy overweight but then I lost a bunch of weight?

Right, and now I'm a size 10.

Right, and I have absolutely NO desire to lose anymore weight at all.  Sure, I want to tone up, but I do not want to shed anymore pounds because I am most comfortable at a size 10.

Uh huh.  Well, today, we had a health screening at work.  (It's required if we don't want to pay an arm and a leg for insurance.)

They weighed me, took my height, and informed me that I am overweight.  I need to lose 42 pounds.

These numbers affect our ever-rising health insurance costs, and now I'm pissed off.

What I'm being told is that in order to be "healthy," I have to look completely emaciated.  Because that is exactly how I would look if I lost 42 more pounds.

There are people who were born to be super thin.  Maybe you are one of those people.  Maybe you are tiny, and it looks amazing on you.  I am not one of those people.  I know because I've done it, and it looks all wrong.

My biggest problem is that when I did it, I did it because I was told by someone else that it was right for me.  I did it because I was told that that was the only way to be "beautiful."  

Well, now I'm 30 years old and have given birth 3 times, and I know that's a load of crap.

The "I have to be a size 2 to be pretty" part of my brain died or fell out or grew up a long time ago.   When I look in the mirror, I want to see curves staring back at me.   That is what is beautiful to me.  If I lost 42 pounds, I'd be skin and bones, and would in no way be anything near what I consider to be healthy looking.  I've literally been every size from a 2-18.  I'm well acquainted with what looks best on me.

I've been fat, and I can tell you that right now, I'm not fat.  I don't feel fat.  I don't look fat.  I don't feel bad about myself.  I don't feel unhealthy.  I have no trouble keeping up with my crazy schedule and my two kids.  I make good food choices far more often than I make poor ones.  I exercise.  I drink water.  I take my kids outside to play.  I cannot even stomach fast food anymore.  I strive daily to live a healthy lifestyle.

Still I'm being told that I am unhealthy, and it is not just me.  Other people in my office who exercise, eat right, and look great were told the same thing.

I have no doubt in my mind that I could lose 42 pounds if I wanted to do it. But I don't want to do it.


So, no, absolutely not to your "ideal weight."  I'm the one who has to live in this body, so I'll be the one deciding how it should look.

I feel good, and I'm happy.  Brand me "unhealthy" if you want.