There is a blog in my "saved" folder titled "shiny and happy." You don't get to see that one because I didn't hit publish prior to the shiny and happy wearing off. Instead, you will be enduring plain, old, bitter Michelle.
I'm taking issue with unfairness today. Frankly, all the people who have ever responded to a lament of "It's not fair!" with "Life's not fair" can just stop reading now because I have no patience for your "get over it" attitude at the moment.
I've been "getting over" the same things for years. What that actually entails is taking up a vice (most vices kill you) and applying the vice as a band aid every time my "This isn't fair!" moment rears its ugly head because to address it will only get me beaten back with "life's not fair" which actually translates to "I don't really care."
The solution came to me today while I stared out my window (and didn't work because my work is one facet of my unfairness problem). I'm done participating in unfair situations. Once I have aired my frustration and requested change and been denied, I'm going to walk away. I am not going to keep burying the unfairness with my vices (the ones that are killing me) and hoping things will get better.
Things do not get better on their own, and they certainly do not get better when you accept answers like "life's not fair." Perhaps life isn't fair, but I'm no longer willing to live under anyone else's brand of unfair-to-you-but-it's-benefiting-me while I go quietly crazy.
Changes to come. Maybe you'll see that "Shiny and Happy" blog soon.
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Maybe next time jump out that window?
ReplyDeleteI don't know who you are, but you should definitely not work for a suicide hotline, Kenneth. If you don't like my blog, don't read it. Simple solution, sunshine.
ReplyDeleteif kenneth is reading a stranger's blog at 9:22 on a Friday night, I feel more sorry for him than I do you.
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